God has given us a great capacity to love. He has given us many opportunities for blessing and for growth. He gives us those opportunities and brings us what we need to fulfill these pieces of our life, it is up to us to grab hold and grow.

So what do you do when you finally realize you have squandered the gifts He has given? What do you do when you finally wake up and stop looking inward at your own discomfort and realize that all along He wanted you to find true happiness and joy in life? How do you take that first step?

Sometimes hardship comes along and sometimes we can rest in comfortable times. As believers He has given us a purpose and a journey, sometimes with another and sometimes alone. But our purpose is Christ, and our journey is for Him.

I truly believe God does not want to allow pain in my life. I know He gives me opportunities to see where I am heading, but sometimes I don’t pay attention. I know that when I am comfortable I tend to look at my own comfort and not see the damage my rut is causing around me.

I’ve been knocked down, not just a rung, and not to full brokenness, but enough to wake me up to my selfishness and give me the push I apparently need to get back to doing His will. Not my will. To being a witness for Him, not a hindrance to Him. I got comfortable and thought it would be okay to wait and start my journey in a little while. And in doing so I have hindered the journey of others and have hurt those I love.

I am on a journey back to my Lord, back to the life He has commanded of me. I want it to be easy, but I know there will be times when the struggle, the loneliness and the pain of what I have lost will try to envelope me. But I will press on, I will look to Him, I will surround myself with the right kind of people, and I will find joy in this journey.

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