If you are one who has been following these writings for a while you will remember that I spent a great deal of time in a dark place of discouragement and fear. Most of my adult life I was in a relationship where my safety was dependent upon my performance, so I lived my life to try to meet the expectations of an emotionally unstable husband.
Even after I left that relationship I continued trying to perform well for others. This is not the way God intended our earthly relationships and it is definitely not what He intends for our relationship with Him.
Who are you living for? Why are you doing the things that you do? Is your purpose to be good enough for someone else? Yourself? Or are you truly living for the Lord?
One of the many wonderful things about the Lord is that He is a God of grace and mercy. He doesn’t say “wait until you are worthy to come to me.” No, He says “Come to me all who are weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest.” Matthew 11:28
Sometimes, in the midst of discouragement, I forget that this invitation is not just for those who are searching, God extends the same grace to us after we become believers. A loving grace that is greater than all my sin and promises eternal life because He loves me. Not because I am perfect or have it all together, but simply because He loves me.
When we base our worth on performance we will always fall short.